Yup, the map of my life has been drawn.. well, not totally lah, but more or less.. Yup, I got a call from MOE today to say that I got the scholarship! yay thank God! It really meant alot to mi. (I was dying of nervous breakdown the night b4 the interview, lucky mi momma had lots of comforting words for interviews :) In any case, it turned out really good, more like a chit chat session) At 1st I was a little hesitant about going for it, but after the psychometric test, and working in TKGS, I felt quite sure i should go for it. Well, for those who know me, honestly, if I don't become a teacher, what do u think i'll become?! Can't imagine right? :)
And a few weeks back NUS sent mi a package to welcome mi into their science faculty! And since i've been so busy, I haven't accepted it, so i shall accept it today :)
So as u can see, the next 8 yrs or so has been mapped out for mi already. On one hand, it's good, cuz there's security, but on the other hand, i can't get out of it even if it's a crappy life. And the great plan to move to melbourne will have to be postponed.
I've learnt a great deal of stuff about myself from being in a relationship.
1) I'm an awfully petty person. Maybe not. But at least I have certain expectations which sometimes dun go met. Yu Ching says it's ok cuz guys are like that so just ignore it. Atiqah on the other hand, says that if a guy doesn't meet all ur expectations, get a new one, cuz if he wun treat u well and go the extra mile to make u happy, he's not serious about u. Hmmm... who to believe? Well, I guess momma's advice is to be trusted. She says guys are not like girls, so u can't expect them to remember everything or to be extra sensitive (hmmm wat about those guys who at least rmb to msg their girlfrens at least once a day when they're free?). And u gotta communicate ur expectations to them or they dunno. Perhaps it'll be nice if he could say what he'll do (or not do) in the future so that at least u know he knew where he went wrong and is serious enough to change for u..
2) I hold grudges. Well, as a matter of fact, all girls do. So if he forgets to wish mi for mi interview on friday (and i reminded him like so many times!!) and then on monday forgets to msg mi all day, I am gonna get really pissed. (as a matter of fact that's wad happened, and that's why i'm pissed.) And when I'm pissed, I expect a proper apology. Well, ok, maybe that's unreasonable of mi, afterall he dun even noe he was supposed to do that. In any case, leaving mi alone is unlikely to work (unless there are other stuff to distract mi)
3) I am stupidly flickle. The same behavior on two different days can have different reactions on mi. For example. If on monday he doesn't msg mi and i happen to be in a bad mood cuz of crap that happens at home or sch, u can be sure i'll be so pissed i wun tok to him the whole of tuesday. But if on another day good stuff happens (like i dream a happy dream of him or i find out that i get the scholarship, which btw really happened), a whole day of ignoring from him is ok. (of course the grudges rule takes precedence. so since i was pissed off ydae, today i'll still be pissed even if i do have a nice dream and i found out that i got the scholarship. perhaps i was getting ready to forgive and forget, but by afternoon i had totally forgotten the dream, so the dream takes no more effect.) So the moral of the story for guys out there, is just msg ur girl everyday in case it's been a bad day. If it was a good day then good for u, u just made her day even better :)
well, there are others, but mi show's starting now, so i'll just leave u with these thoughts. :)
